The myth of my 'former life'

I read this article today on guardian.co.uk: The myth of the ¬†writer’s ‘former life’. It made me think of what would be the most dramatic story of my life.

There will always be a couple of viewpoints you’d want to go with anyone’s life. People has their ups and downs, happy and sad moments, smooth sailings and hardships. One person’s hardship could be considered as another’s smooth sailing.

The thing is, I love my life right now. I wouldn’t want to trade it with anyone else. And most importantly, I don’t like to dwell on the negative things. I believe in accentuating on the positive until it outweighs the negative.

But yeah, okay this post is not about that. So let’s see…

How do I make money right now… Well, I don’t. I live through… being married. I’d like to call it as my husband’s investment on my writing career. I still hate the fact that I couldn’t make money on my own (yet!). But being supported by the husband (which technically means I’m a *gasp* housewife ) doesn’t really qualify as a dramatic job.

We are expats/immigrants in Germany… that always comes with a bit of hardships, right? Although.. my first intention of moving here is to pursue a Master Degree. Not that romantic.

What did I leave to be a novelist? A nice paycheck in an IT job… which could go from 30k to 50k EUR a year here. I still bangs my head from time to time over this.. but you know what? I follow my heart to get here. And following my dream is worth every single lacking penny! (note: someone please reminds me again of this when I whine about not being able to buy that shoes!)

So, I think I’d be a former Software Engineer who follows her heart.

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  1. I did not leave a promising career to be a starving artist, but nevertheless I came to the conclusion that nothing else matters if we do not follow our hearts. Everything we do has a purpose. It brings us closer to the person we are designed to be. If we constantly spread ourselves out, away from what we truly feel inside, then we become hollow and vapid. Without function. People try to fill the vacuum with ideals and material things, but the hard facts are simply, we are not being true to who we are if we are not in love with what we are doing. Practicality aside, not everyone was meant to be rich. In fact being rich is one of the worst jobs ever, because it has little to challenge the soul. Take heart Dear Astrid, there will be shoes. Continue to follow your heart, push your dreams and love what you do! We need you.

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    • Thank you for this lovely comment, Robert. I believe we are already one of the lucky people when we know what our dream is. I truly love what I do, and yes next time there’ll be even better shoes ;). I hope your dream fills your life with bliss :). We need you too!

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  2. Just read your blog… so inspiring…:) Thx a lot..
    I’ve spent 6 years working for somebody else’s company with highly tight schedule and… nothing left but physical fatigue and mental retardation.. Thanks God we are having a kind guy who get the bills paid..:)
    Let’s follow our heart and get everything better by then..

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