Turning Thirty One

I woke up this morning, thinking… wow I’m thirty one, and that’s actually… pretty awesome! Quite interesting that I didn’t have panic attacks, since I used to think thirty one is old, and here I am, not feeling *that* ancient.

Then again, for me, I already had the thought that turning thirty one might be easier than thirty. There was way too much expectations last year. At thirty one, I figured either I would achieved some of them, or I’d have more peace with myself. True. I’m still fighting for my goals and trying to have peace with whatever the result.

Well, last year I couldn’t really admit I’m 30. It’s easier to say I’m 29, and I’ll just be 29 for two years and then go straight to 31. Shame on me! Although that’s kind of what I did. Here’s hoping that I’m not the only one feeling that way. Please?

To be honest, it was easier to enjoy getting older when I was a teenager and I’d have something to look forward to: getting my drivers licence, and considered as an adult in society. After this, the only other milestone would be the day you’re considered as a senior citizen. That doesn’t help much.

I should try to find my own way to look for a way for enjoying birthdays. There shouldn’t be no reason to fear aging, right? It’ll happen anyways, and worrying about it will just add another wrinkle. Definitely not the wisest idea.

There is, however, something that gets better with age. Wisdom and experience. So, as I get older, I become wiser. Ha! Please, someone stop me from being disillusioned *facepalm*. Anyways, I learned that if I take this day as a moment to look honestly into my life, taking each element, each event that happened since last year, focusing on the good things (and yes, there will be plenty. I’m sure even in the darkest moments there’s some goods too), I would realize how incredibly lucky I am.

Yes. I’m lucky. Lucky to have wonderful friends and family in my life. Friends that still take their time to wish me a Happy Birthday, friends I can still keep in touch even if we live far away, friends I met on my journey being a writer, friends I never met but I swear I feel like I know them for a lifetime. The people who would remind me of my journey and my dream.

Cheers to you! And thank you:)

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    • Glad to hear that :). I wonder when’s a good mental age… The wisdom of a 60 year old and the passion of a 5 year old? Hmm…

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  1. I totally flipped out when I turned 30. Already few months before that I started getting almost depressed, it felt like there was a hidden midlife crisis with “what have i achieved?” like questions…And I felt unhappy, because there was not “much” of achievement at that point, as I thought at that moment.
    31 was already much easier, or perhaps I just decided to ignore the fact that I am turning 31. In a strange way, I am looking forward to my coming 32nd birthday: my mom hopefully can come and we celebrate it together, my wonderful friends are around me, and I have no reasons to complain about my life. Although I still haven’t done many things I wanted to do until this birthday, like becoming fluent in French, finally getting my driver’s license, visiting my friends and their babies, taking dance classes, visiting Canada, do some serious photography classes, I nonetheless stopped feeling sad that years are passing so quickly. Time is not a helpful tool in life, in our daily busy crazy life…
    Have a good celebration!
    P.S. Shocked that you are 31! Always thought you are in your early 20s… :)

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    • That’s a lot of things you’d like to do! I feel like we should really make a list of the things we really would love to achieve, and perhaps taking small steps everyday to do that? Although I’m quite sure you’ll manage the things you REALLY want to do :).

      So nice that you get to celebrate with your mom! I hope that will work out :).

      Yeah, I’m about the same age as you :). Thanks for being shocked :D.

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  2. My friend used to have a joke “The best 10 years in a woman’s life” are between 29 and 30.” I had never seen such a nervious wreck before like her when the big 30 was hanging over her head. Now she’s heading on to 50 and still lives quite well ;-)

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    • Hehe, thanks for letting me in on this! I realized now that the key for me is to be happy with it everyday. If there’s something I didn’t like, change it. If there’s something I regret, well I just have to believe in second chances ;). I’m still here!

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  3. Oh noooo! I missed it. I should check your blog more often.
    I have just read that a woman is most beautiful at her 31st year.
    It says this is the most attractive age due to the wisdom and self confidence. Enjoy and Celebrate it :)

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    • Hehehe you should :P. I always link them to twitter / facebook though, so just check in when you have the time :D.
      Thank you!! I’m enjoying it already ;). I hope we could meet again soon!

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